heart broken

Today's mood :(
I dont know why , but I'm feeling I'm kinda left out.

I talk , nobody is there to listen
I play , nobody will teman me
I cries , nobody will knows
I smile , nobody will knows that it was fake

yea , my mood swing easily.
If you know how to treat me well , I'll be very happy.
but if you don't , sorry , you'll see me emo every second.
everything I did , nobody will see it.
i've try my best , but i get nothing , even a word.
i kinda hate that feeling , you know when you get like good result , and your parents didnt praise you or like , ' next time you'll be better ' , NO ! won't happen in my life.
but , when my sisters get like good result , they will praise them , buy them wadever they want.
I WON'T HAVE A THING I WANT , EVEN A SHIT.
fine , i won't mind this , i'm just jealous they have parent's love.

but , you also can't treat me like your maid right ?
do this do that , sometime i really tired , call you to help , wad i get ? scold from you.
but , if my sisters dont wanna do wad you told them to do , you treat them like your princess.
wad is wrong with you guys ? i'm your daughter also kay.

ISOKAY !
you know wad is the feeling when a knife stabbing to your heart millions of times ?
isn't that hurt ? can you even think about it ?

seeing your loves one ignores you

tears are coming down , i can't control it , but
this is wad i do everyday. :'(

Nerds ,
Rachael

Valentine's Day is coming

Long time no update blog. :p
YAY ! Changed the background. heh ! NERDS <3
So yeah , valentine is coming. :O
as usual #foreveralone
AND , that's awkward , you know why ?
because valentine's day is on week days ,
is like got school weih. -.-
you'll be like , seeing boys giving flowers , chocolate and stuff to girls.
the most most most awkward is ,
all your friends have their own partners and you memang #foreveralone

I wish to have you back , seriously :)

Nerds ,
Rachael ;)